This has been a very trying 5 weeks. So many emotions and so little we could
do. On 1 Jan our country choose to close
their doors to Americans. This is why I have been in a daze for many
weeks. I have forgotten many things,
committed to things and forgot about them.
The house has not run well since then also, laundry piled up and flours
unvacuumed. We had hoped it was a temporary, maybe lasting a month, but as time
went on we realized this was not going to change. We still had hope, we new as long as our
agency was willing to fight for us, we had a chance, a small chance but a
chance. On Tuesday (7 Feb) we received
an email from our agency, stating that they will no longer be working in
country. This is very sad, we figured we
had a chance as long as we had our agency, but with out them we have nothing.
What this means, we will not be able to get our sweet Mika. Even though we had not met her, we feel she
is our daughter. Our girls feel she is
their sister. We have purchased things
over the past few months for her. She
will always be our little girl. Sadly
and with heavy hearts, we no long can pursue our little girl. So, we cope with the loose and know that this
is all Gods will.
What next? We have a
completed home study, an approved USCIS, and even grant money. We feel that God would not have given this to
us unless He intended us to use it. So,
we will press forward. We are going to continue the adoption process in another
country. We had intended to adopt two
children, we just never expected to do it in this order. What will make this
time different? We intend to pursue a
special needs child, but this time we do not intend to find her on a photo
list. We will leave this completely in God’s hands. We are going to wait to receive a referral.
Does this mean we are going to forget Mika? Absolutely not. Does this mean we do not want her to be
adopted? Absolutely not. Canada can
still adopt from country so there is a chance she could still be adopted. And
we will do everything in our power to advocate for that. If she is not adopted, and when the country
reopens, we will start the process again and work to adopt her. Whomever the family is, she will be
adopted. We will pray ever day that He
protects her until that day comes.